the only thing that matters

I miss

alixvictoriaa — Fri, 06 May 2011 03:35:42 +0000

Being skinny, and getting excited when I weighed myself and it was lighter. I miss seeing my hipbones and sternum. I miss having collarbones and sexy shoulders. I miss it enough to try my hardest to stop eating again

Pain

alixvictoriaa — Sun, 26 Dec 2010 23:11:46 +0000

Still hurts like it was yesterday

Christmas

alixvictoriaa — Sat, 25 Dec 2010 00:38:33 +0000

Woke up in pieces this morning. I cried all day. Now I can’t sleep. Dug out your picture this morning which was a bad idea. Messaged you tonight but you didn’t reply. I’m so lonely but if I can’t have you no one will do. I hate myself so much.

Hmm

alixvictoriaa — Mon, 15 Nov 2010 22:53:57 +0000

Sometimes I think about hanging. And how easy it would be. No more thinking. No more worrying. No more work. No more stress. The only thing that stops me is imagining my mothers face. How much it would hurt her. So I try and stay strong. It’s these lonely nights that does it. I can’t take much more.

sick.

alixvictoriaa — Wed, 10 Nov 2010 09:30:33 +0000

i’m tired of waking up. i’m tired of feeling this way. like i have to constantly hold myself together or else i might fall apart. it makes me sick how badly i need you and know you’re up and leaving me in more ways than one. i don’t know what to do. i would do anything to make the pain stop and it scares me.

Predicamemt

alixvictoriaa — Sun, 17 Oct 2010 23:58:47 +0000

I don’t think I can quit you. Even though I know I should. You scare me but im addicted.

I wish

alixvictoriaa — Fri, 08 Oct 2010 21:53:50 +0000

I just wish I could forget you. Stop playing with my emotions. I hate that I’d rather be with you and be unhappy than be without you.

Go fuck yourself.

alixvictoriaa — Wed, 06 Oct 2010 06:21:18 +0000

If you want out stay out.

Oh well

alixvictoriaa — Sat, 02 Oct 2010 10:45:41 +0000

Guess you were a mistake all along. For the best I guess you’re an idiot and you’ll end up behind bars and you know it. But I guess that’s good, you can stop fucking up my life and my head.

Prison

alixvictoriaa — Thu, 30 Sep 2010 23:01:32 +0000

Why do you keep doing this. Do i really mean that little to you?? This is killing me